Yesterday a hattrick of people separately told me in excited tones that today would see temperatures soar to 20 degrees. In March. How very exciting! I immediately got the towels and bedsheets ready for an overnight wash ready to hang outside to dry today. I know I’m middle aged when this is the sort of situation that sets my pulse racing!
Then this morning out of respect for my in-person clients, I faced off my shower dodging tendencies (and won). Go me.
Yesterday I was granted permission by the plumber to give the shower a wide berth. He had just changed my electric dribbler of a shower to a mixer tap higher pressured substitute. When he tentatively suggested I refrain from using the shower until that evening, I gave him some hearty assurance that I wouldn’t risk ruining his handiwork. I told him that instead, I would hold off from a hose down until today. Despite the unexpectedly hot and sweaty walk I hadn’t foreseen myself taking or the Pilates class with bands – I love it when we play with Pilates toys because I can find an absence of props more difficult, which means more likely to result in gut muscle pain. This can last all week which makes belly laughing painful.
Anyway, sometimes showering feels like one job too many in between me and immersing myself in all the exciting passions and pursuits of the day. Especially if my hair needs washing. I have a new understanding of my mother’s decision to cut my hair short when I was a child. She stated clearly that she couldn’t be bothered to wash it. Something I seem to be feeling myself. But I’m not yet ready for a crew cut or is it pixie cut for a female? Nor am I ready to go grey or rather white and wiry … they started appearing when I was still a teen. And so, for now, I still force myself into the shower to wash my ‘short as I’m ready to go’ hair, when I can no longer get away with not doing so. But at least now it is quicker and easier thanks to in the installation of a non-dribbler of a shower.
In the name of increasing all comfort giving props throughout my home to respect my middle aging body’s changing needs, I also invested in a new bathmat. Not only is it pink and pretty to look at but utterly wonderful to step out of the shower on to its fluffy caress. This is in stark contrast to the previous one which was quite advanced within its second career as a pumice stone. Simple substitutes can increase pleasure and decrease discomfort! A win/win!
And now here I am in the garden, under the parasol, post clients and lunch, but pre the painting that every painting session reminds me I hate. But I am listening to the birds singing while watching the red kites fly lower and nearer than ever before. Wow. I love nature. It evokes a deep sensation of utter joy and appreciation in me. Or am I confusing this with procrastination from the painting? Or could this be the usual case of not this or that, but the other, aka a mix of all. Probably. Either way, it is utterly wonderful.
Plus, a spontaneous conversation with a fellow birdsong-loving female at church resulted in the acquisition of an app that tells you the name of the singer. I can never even remember the names of human singers much less identify which bird is singing what song. But this app listens then gives a name and a picture. Magic! In my case I got
- Eurasian Blue Tit
- European Robin
A spontaneous eruption of the lyrics,
‘I’m so excited … and I just can’t hide it’,
flew forth from my mouth in response. And no, I can’t recall the singer. I shared this dopamine dispensing moment of high drama with the one who introduced me to the app. It takes a lot for me to face off my ‘I want to scream’ reaction to the stress of apps, but I was mighty glad I finally remembered to do it this morning.
Oh what fun!
I am so grateful that I have emerged from the haze of hormonal hell that feels like living with an unreliable internet connection minus any let up in responsibilities that require it. Who knew stopping, being still and simply being in the garden, could be so utterly enthralling. Plus having the time and freedom to do this thanks to disengaging from any rodent featuring competitions. And having relinquished any desire to compete or compare with the Jones, Smiths or any other buggers.
This is contentment right here. The washing is drying (slowly) on the line, the outdoor cushions are drying off – they were so well decorated in bird shit that I wondered whether one was secretly living in my shed over winter. The birds are singing. The yellow butterflies are doing a flutterby and … the painting is waiting …